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Entry 1.1Location: The Rock
Date: August 13th, 2097
Time: 12:03 p.m.
I've been trying to fight, love
It hurts to even breathe.
You told me it gets harder.
Well guess what?
I've been fighting against my head for days!
You always wanted to know
What my moment of clarity was.
Well I figured it out.
All my troubles melted once I figured it out.
I figured out what was wrong!
I was so confused, by all the strange dreams
By all the things I was hearing and reading
I died, love.
Three times on the table.
Somehow, through neurological stimulation
Of the heart
They brought me back
Three times, love.
You lost me three times.
I found out right after
That I died three times.
I nearly died once while recovering
They told me that I was unstable
They didn't know how stable I would become
Or if I'd ever turn stable again.
I was afraid for you to lose me
I've always been afraid that you'll lose me
That's why I pulled away
That's why I've been so distant.
I didn't want y
Entry 1.3Location: The Daongle
Date: July 27th, 2097
Time: 8:16 p.m.
I'm sorry I never told you, babe
Sorry that I never had the guts to say something
I'm sorry that I can't be there for you
I'm sorry that I'm too weak to be here
I just can't do this anymore, love.
It hurts to much to breath
It hurts just to wake up anymore
Honestly, the healthy human mind doesn't wake up
And think that this is it's last day on Earth.
But I think that it's a sort of freedom.
A good time to figure out if you've done the right things
To take an inventory of your life
To assess the things you've been through
I'm sorry that I can't stay
I really wish that things were different
That I wasn't too weak to make it through this.
God, I really hope you won't be mad
I hope you understand why I'm going to do this
I really do.
Please don't be angry with me.
I still care about you.
I still want you more than anything.
Don't think of this as abandonment, love.
I'll always be here in your min
Entry 1.2Location: The Deserted Highway
Date: May 24th, 2097
Time: 9:13 a.m.
I've seen her face
I've seen the way you look when you talk about her
I've seen your whole face just light up
It's been a long road to here
A long road of trial and error
But in the end, babe?
I'm just an error.
But when you talk about her?
You just look....so happy
It's like nothing bad could go wrong
It's hurts a bit to see you like that
But it also hurts to see that by holding onto you
I'm keeping you from being even happier
As happy as you could be with her
I'm selfish though, babe.
I want to keep you for myself
But I know it's the wrong thing to do
I know that you could be much happier without me
Not to say I'd let you erase me from your life
No, I'm too selfish to let you do that
I can't imagine a world where you don't exist
But at the same time
I can't keep you in this world where your being suffocated
You had it answered for you.
"Because you're a nice guy."
I can't hold
Dear Lord, Hangman's PrayerDear lord, Help me now
I'm about to join your ranks
As another one of the unheard
Individuals who lost their
Fight with the system
Dear lord, Help me now
I couldn't keep up the fight
It was a burden I couldn't
Bear to carry any longer
A terrible fight
Dear Lord, I'm about to leave
I'm about to leave this earth
I'm going to join you in your ranks
A prayer from the gallows
A suitable thing
Dear Lord, Help me now
I can't keep up this pretense
Give me the strength I need to end it
Give me the strength to leave
I can't do it, Lord
Dear Lord. I'm sorry
I know taking one's own life is sin
But in reality, how could it be?
Shouldn't it be sin to cause
Another person to feel like
The only solution is to
Take their own life?
Dear Lord, Why isn't that in your Ten Commandments?
Isn't that just a way of saying it's okay
To kill them indirectly
Through use of words
Instead of actual violence?
Dear Lord, Help me now.
I'm going to join your ranks
It's the prayer of the Hangman's noose
Just slip that ro
To Fix A Broken HeartTo fix a broken heart,
You have to break it a little bit more
So you can put all the little pieces
Back in order.
To fix a broken heart,
You have to tear it apart
Bit by boring bit
Until you discover what hurt it at first.
To fix a broken heart,
You have to be able to surrender
Surrender your soul
To the person who's trying to put it back together.
To fix a broken heart,
You have to break a few hearts yourself...
Entry 1.0Entry: 1.0
Subject Name: "Pepper Cirque"
Subject Number: 150072613
Detention Facility: Ironview
Cell Number: 9278
My name is Pepper. I really don't want to be doing this but oh well. They told me that in order to be 'rereleased' as a 'functioning member of society' that I have to do this log thing. I really would rather be lounging about here in my cell until they execute me, but I suppose that death just really isn't my thing. I think they really just want to brainwash me into one of their silly little drones. Oh gee, aren't I just so excited to be going through my day like a little puppet or a dog. With all this "yes, sir." or "no, sir." I'm about to go a little bit insane with all of this. It's driving me crazy! Then again, isn't supposed 'insanity' why I'm in here in the first place? Or is because I refused to conform to their happy little society where nothing ever goes wrong? I don't know. I can'
Had to do something with Photoshop for one of my Art classes. So I made a musical zebra.
It seemed like a good idea at the time, folks...
Stock Image: [link]
Time: 3 hours approx. on and off.
Program Used: CS5
I don't own the brushes used, they belong to whoever made them. I just can't find the original ones..
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